#4 – Still trust Him

Technically the first day of work today.
I finished updating contact in the company phone and created excel spreadsheets. I’m so surprised at myself that I could finish them so fast. I thought I’d be distracted but I was in the zone!
Shows that sometimes all we need to do is focus.

It’s the opening night of RCIA at the Church of the Holy Spirit. I still remember sitting amongst the crowd last year. I’ve made bosom friends that I don’t hesitate joining for another year. Moreover, I missed many sessions last year due to hospital checks and admissions.

Honestly, because Andy isn’t going tonight, I did consider not going as I came back tired from work and laziness started creeping through my spine. But I still decided to go and I’m glad I did.
To be honest, after what happened over the weekend, I did feel angry with God, wondering what his plan is exactly and how twisted his plans were. If it was to test my patience, it’s not working. I did also lose a little trust in him, reminding myself that perhaps, he has a better plan for me?

I went tonight and stood as I sang the songs in worship. I didn’t feel any difference and it was similar as what I went through last year. Just when I thought I won’t take anything new home with me this year, the message was there in the last testimonial that was shared tonight.
She shared the story that she heard in church, about Peter on a boat, being called forward by God. He came out of his boat, wanting to walk toward Him. But he was afraid of falling into the water. But he took a leap of Faith and started walking on water. He kept looking at God, walking towards him on the water. He was amazed. In his amazement, he suddenly dropped his head and looked down on his feet, and he fell into the water, drowning. Just when he lost his focus on the Lord, he fell.
That was what was happening to me!
I lost sight of Him, and I fell, into doubt, worry, fear, anger and hurt.
But if I keep my sights and trust on God, he will see me through everything.

The Power of God’s Love, saved me once again.
Even if you don’t know Him, he knows you. And he will see you through.
Together, we pray.
Amen.

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